Plans to give you hope and a future!

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares  YHWH, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

So the past few weeks have been a struggle for me.  I am admitting this out loud as to tell on the devil.  Perhaps if I have the guts to call him out on it he will have no choice but to leave me alone.

It is a hard pill to swallow when your mother scolds you at 38 years old. (Oops, did I just admit my age?)  As I sat in my car and cried like an over-emotional teenage girl last weekend, my mother (through her tears) firmly told me that I had to get a grip ~  life is not fair, things are hard, circumstances are what they are! I know that she is right.  Life is not always fair but we have to be strong enough to take the bad with the good. 

I have had one of those moments (that's lasted WAY longer than a literal moment) that I just wish I didn't have to deal with my reality for a little while.  Crazy - I know!  The stress of being a single mother can be overwhelming at times.  I have to fight off the jealousy that creeps into my heart when I see families together.  YHWH has provided every need that Andy and I have had, yet I continue to allow myself to be burdened with the bad.

We all have battles to fight, we wouldn't be worth a toot (yes, I just used the word toot) if we didn't.  As I sat and cried with a friend on the phone tonight (are you seeing a pattern here with all the crying?) I was reminded that I am NOT alone.  I have a support system of precious people who love me and  help carry my load even when I'm not able to see it.

 I keep going back to the scripture . . .  "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I don't want prosperity in the form of things, I want to be full of love and compassion with a heart that will be able to help others who feel like I do today.   I can't do this until I "get a grip" and learn to be content.  One day, YHWH is going to give me the desires of my heart - he promised he would, but for now I am going to keep on fighting this battle as best I can.